"army mode"

I find that when my husband is getting ready to go away for a while he spends his last day at home very hesitant to get involved with the workings of the house and tends to be a bit of a jerk to everyone.  I call this "army mode".  From what I understand, it's his subconscious way of making the act of leaving a little easier on him.  I'll admit, it drives me insane!!!  My husband is generally very involved with things in the house and very attentive to the members of our family.  It's almost like he wants us not to want him here so he doesn't have to feel bad about leaving.  I always try to get the issues resolved before he walks out the door as I tend to over analyze things if I am left too long to rethink them.  I will admit that I tend to blow things a little out of proportion if I can't deal with them immediately, it's something that I have been trying my entire life to fix.  I haven't yet managed to make that happen!

This whole "army mode" thing is something I've struggled with for a long time.  I try my best to always leave things on a good note with everything I do, that's who I am.  I'm sure I drive my husband insane with my need to discuss things until I feel better, especially the night before he goes away.  I just want it to be a happy goodbye, obviously I will miss him like crazy but I want that last smile to be one that will stick in my brain until I get to see him again.  I never know when the next time I will speak to him will be, I don't want negative feelings to get in the middle of our great relationship.

I can honestly say that no amount of "army mode" or beast visits will make me love him any less, send me a little closer to boarding the crazy train perhaps, but never make me love him less.